008 - Pecan
Apr. 30th, 2013 08:09 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
deadly_nedSo.
As a first time Warden more or less mentoring a first time Inmate, there's this very important question that's been hovering menacingly near my head for the last few days like a demonic little helicopter and I would be remiss if I didn't at least ask it, even if I'm sure it's obvious to the more seasoned Wardens, Inmates, what have you.
...Is an Inmate's happiness more important than their graduation?
If you had to choose one, I mean.
And I think I should also ask to Inmates because I don't...like the unspoken divide and communication is usually an effective bridge over most divides..
What do you need from your warden to be happier?
[Private to Claire Bennet, Jesse Pinkman, the Marquis de Sade, and Megamind as a group]
Someone happened to tell me you're a dog person.
I'm trying to..rehome my dog, Digby. My Inmate is scared of them and it's probably best if Digby and I separated until my Inmate graduates. And I'd like to find someone to...borrow him, or take him, but if I don't find someone he'll have to go home and we've never been separated and I'm feeling a little...clingy.
As a first time Warden more or less mentoring a first time Inmate, there's this very important question that's been hovering menacingly near my head for the last few days like a demonic little helicopter and I would be remiss if I didn't at least ask it, even if I'm sure it's obvious to the more seasoned Wardens, Inmates, what have you.
...Is an Inmate's happiness more important than their graduation?
If you had to choose one, I mean.
And I think I should also ask to Inmates because I don't...like the unspoken divide and communication is usually an effective bridge over most divides..
What do you need from your warden to be happier?
[Private to Claire Bennet, Jesse Pinkman, the Marquis de Sade, and Megamind as a group]
Someone happened to tell me you're a dog person.
I'm trying to..rehome my dog, Digby. My Inmate is scared of them and it's probably best if Digby and I separated until my Inmate graduates. And I'd like to find someone to...borrow him, or take him, but if I don't find someone he'll have to go home and we've never been separated and I'm feeling a little...clingy.
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Date: 2013-04-30 01:01 pm (UTC)private
Date: 2013-04-30 01:02 pm (UTC)I just don't want to rush headlong into making him graduate if he's going to be miserable once he's there.
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Date: 2013-04-30 05:10 pm (UTC)private
Date: 2013-04-30 05:39 pm (UTC)private
Date: 2013-04-30 06:01 pm (UTC)private
Date: 2013-04-30 09:49 pm (UTC)Can I change my deal?
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:03 am (UTC)Have you heard the Admiral speak? He's capricious. If you can today, you might not be able to tomorrow.
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:04 am (UTC)The Admiral sort of terrifies me. I actively try not to engage with him unless strictly necessary.
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:06 am (UTC)private
Date: 2013-05-05 12:07 am (UTC)It just...takes a bit of emotional practice in front of the mirror before it...happens. And I don't like to talk unless there's a reason for the talking.
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:09 am (UTC)[This is not a fondly nostalgic tone.]
If it's enough to change your deal and you can't say it . . .
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:10 am (UTC)Eventually.
It's important enough that I can put it into words when the time comes.
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:18 am (UTC)private
Date: 2013-05-05 12:19 am (UTC)Don't try to make me anxious when we don't know for sure if there's anything to be anxious about.
I'm easily stressed.
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:21 am (UTC)private
Date: 2013-05-05 12:23 am (UTC)No, I mean. I can...figure this out. What I need to do. I'm sorry, I'm just...mostly talking out loud to myself in the event that one of my sentences will hold the answer and I can just reach out as it exits my mouth and grab it.
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:25 am (UTC)Are you a coward? [Not accusatory. Merely curious.]
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:32 am (UTC)I don't think so. I'm cautious, and I'm nervous about starting new things or rocking the boat or upsetting the status quo.
But that won't stop me from doing dangerous things where needed.
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:34 am (UTC)Why are you so invested in your inmate?
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:35 am (UTC)private
Date: 2013-05-05 12:36 am (UTC)You identify with him.
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:37 am (UTC)Instead of what I need. What I need can wait.
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:45 am (UTC)private
Date: 2013-05-05 12:46 am (UTC)And I'm just here for a kiss.
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Date: 2013-05-05 12:49 am (UTC)private
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