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To kitchen staff and to...

Everyone. I...guess. Everyone on the Barge. Or at the very least everyone accustomed to eating food, I don't mean to be exclusive but I don't know exactly how many that applies to since I've already run into two people who don't have or don't want to have the admittedly sometimes disgusting process of digestion so common to the rest of us and.

....Sorry.

I think....what I'd like to do, in order to make everyone feel more...at home, away from home...is to start compiling requests for native dishes.

Basically..

If you tell me what you miss from your home that you don't get to eat on the Barge, I would like to try a hand at cooking it. You get to feel a little closer to home, I get to expand my recipe book, my team gets to try new skills....everyone wins? I think?

Please let me know if this is a terrible idea and if I should stop.

[Private to Cass Cain, visible to David Cain]

I.

We.

Have something for you.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

From:

deadly_ned

You already did this?

If it's a repeated idea, I should delete this entry.

From:

with_my_teacup

Leave it up. You're a little more welcoming looking than I am. This was back when I was an inmate, too.

From:

deadly_ned

I don't think you're unwelcoming. Do people really think that?

From:

with_my_teacup

....yeah? I mean, I kind of make it a goal?

From:

deadly_ned

Um.

Why?

From:

with_my_teacup

General defense mechanism, and I'm choosy about my friends. I like people just a little off balance, is it so wrong?

From:

deadly_ned

Speaking as a person who is never on balanced...

It's not wrong.

But it is kind of mean.

From:

with_my_teacup

Do I upset you, baby?

From:

deadly_ned

You give me occasional acid reflux.

From:

with_my_teacup

...I can't tell if that's fear or annoyance.

From:

deadly_ned

It's anxiety. A clash between fear and annoyance with an extra helping of misunderstanding of social cues with a dash of concern on the side.

From:

with_my_teacup

That's no fun. I want better control of the reactions I get out of people.

[Private]

I don't dislike you. I'll change my act around you, if you want me to, if you'll tell me how. ...and stop pushing your personal space, that's obvious.

From:

deadly_ned

Please don't change for me. My personal space is a very, very small place and people can't help but push it.

It's me. It's not you, it's me. I'm not...comfortable. With most things. Change, closeness, touching....any of it.

I've always been like this. There isn't any changing it.

From:

with_my_teacup

I like to protect the people close to me. Even if it's from my own game face. Why would that bother you, if I toned it down halfway?

From:

deadly_ned

I know. I know you do, and you protected my inmate and me when we needed it most.

I'm just.

I worry about getting...close to people.

From:

with_my_teacup

Why me specifically? I don't think I'm the one who you're gonna get attached to and hurt over. You teach me to bake, we work together in a weird technical way. It's not really where strong emotional bonds start.

From:

deadly_ned

There is no you, specifically. There's you generally.

I'm afraid of what will happen if I see you die. I don't think I could...take that.

From:

with_my_teacup

It's the barge. I'd come back.

[His mouth goes tight.]

Nah, I understand. Same old same old.

From:

deadly_ned

You don't understand. But it's because I haven't..provided the pieces that would lead to understanding. Which is my own fault.

Yes, you'd come back.

From:

with_my_teacup

Are you sure I don't? Are you sure I haven't seen people die and been shocked that another person could hurt me that way just by dying?

I don't have middle gears. Sociopathic tendencies, the docs in Tangiers called it. That I couldn't formulate emotional attachments. Honestly, I agreed.

They were wrong. I was wrong. It's just rare and it's high gear, when it kicks in. I wasn't expecting to get attached. I wasn't expecting it to hurt like I was dying myself.

Edited Date: 2013-06-09 04:52 am (UTC)

From:

deadly_ned

[Maybe it's sensing his inmate is about to graduate soon and feeling desperate for more human connection. Maybe it's the fact that Dean Winchester's already guessed it and the Piemaker wanted to tell someone on his own terms. Maybe he misses having that friendly connection, that shared secret with a trusted individual.

Whatever the reason, he finally says for the first time since stepping onto the Barge, in a rush so that he doesn't have to think too hard about what he's saying...]

I can bring dead things back to life.

From:

with_my_teacup

[Riddick registers that with a frown, sort of forgets his own oblique pain that he'd been trying to convey, that none of his friends would get close to him, that he still felt alone, some animal thing in him straining for touch and intimacy that weren't civilized.

That falls away. He cocks his head-- as a comedian on Earth said, long long ago-- like a dog shown a card trick.]

From:

deadly_ned

[A little stunned that he's actually saying this aloud, the Piemaker repeats]

I can touch dead things, and bring them back to life.

So it's. Sometimes it's....beneficial. Not to have emotional attachments. So when they die - when you die - it won't hurt as much when people comfort you by telling you there's nothing you could have done.

From:

with_my_teacup

Well, you win.

[His face softens up, naturally. He likes Ned. He doesn't like Ned in pain.]

I ain't asking you to get close. I am offering to try a little harder not to die, even if I come back.